Happy But Anxious New Year

As the year comes to an end I feel a weird nervousness that I am unable to fully explain. It feels like something important is slipping away from me that will never come back. When I think about the Christmas and New Year holidays that went by, I realize that I miss the comfort it brought me, the feeling that life had paused for a moment and everything felt a little safer and easier.

Now that the holidays are over that feeling of comfort is gone and it makes me anxious because time has started moving again without waiting for me. Entering another new year reminds me that I am one year older and that my life has not yet turned out the way I once imagined. This thought or realization brings a kind of fear that if I do not act fast, another year will simply pass by like it did till now.

I often find myself missing my younger days and the connections that once felt natural and easy even though I now have people who make my life richer and more meaningful. Some people are no longer here because life moved on and others because they passed away and missing them still hurts or rather creates uneasiness even when my present life is fuller in many ways.

I also feel the weight of watching my loved ones grow older and it reminds me that time is moving through all of us whether we are ready to accept it or not. Along with this sometimes comes the feeling that I am behind in life professionally and personally and that others have moved ahead while I am still trying to figure things out. The thought of lost opportunities or inaction when it mattered most feels traumatizing. Failures from the past come haunting for you.

What I am learning on this subject is that these feelings are more common than we talk about. Psychology tells us that the end of the year naturally makes us reflect on our lives and notice what we think is missing and nostalgia is our minds way of holding on to connection during times of change. Feeling anxious does not mean I am failing it means I care deeply about my life.

As I step into the new year I am trying to be kinder to myself. Instead of asking what I must fix right now I am asking what needs patience. Life does not always move in straight lines and sometimes growth happens quietly.

Like someone said I may feel unfinished but I am still here and still becoming.

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